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happy birthday, you're not special.
you're getting older, but not much better.
we all want to embarrass you, that's why we're singing this song.
so happy fucking birthday. you're not special.
you're not special.



... maybe a little special.

I am pretty sure my cell phone is toast.

my job is not a job. it is basically school. so the good news is that i get to get paid ok money to sit around and learn a program. the bad news is that i have to take a 9 week training class on one program. i can't sit still. i either fidget or almost fall asleep. there's not a whole lot of in-between with me. i keep almost falling out of my chair. there was some mention of headphones, so i hope that means music. music of my choosing, even. but what if i accidentally sang out loud? that would be embarrassing.

i almost fell asleep during work about 20 times so hopefully i will sleep tonight. I need to try to exercise. i usually feel alot better, but it's hard to remember that when i want to be sleeping. i lost 20 pounds and then started working at Target. i gained a couple pounds back. in my boobs. i need to keep going so i can wear cool clothes. and get more tattoos.

 This birthday was so much better than last year. Not that that was too hard to do, considering the working one handed due to severe burns. My care bear balloon is still inflated from last year, which makes me smile. I basically had a non-stop hangout weekend party. I had a lot of fun, but I feel really bad because I was kind of a jerk to everybody. Being that tired with kidney pains makes me kinda grumpy. Would probably make anyone grumpy. But I was really distant and I'm sure everyone thought i hated them, but it's because pretty much all my relationships at this point are convoluted and slightly awkward so I don't know how to act.  I can't say the nice things I want to say so I pretend like I don't care. Trying to not be vulnerable. Anyway, enough excuses, I'm sorry that I am a pain in the ass.  I did have fun. And I did  appreciate all the nice things that people did for me.

I got the coolest present from my grandma. Its a little care bear statue of Grams Bear with Baby Hugs. I realize that I am probably the only person who thinks that is awesome. I am also excited about my Juno soundtrack. I need to go see that movie again. And then again when it goes to the dollar theater.

I start work tomorrow. Which is exciting, because money is exciting. Also, wearing "regular" clothes and losing the name tag is kind of exciting too. The major downside is that I will no longer get paid to people watch, which was my main responsibility at Target.  I don' t know if I am capable of sitting still all day. i have a feeling I will be watching Office Space a lot in my spare time.





"Just because I don't say anything,
Doesn't mean I don't like you.
I open my mouth and I try and i try
But no words came out.

Without 40 oz. of social skills
I'm just an ass in the crack of humanity.
I'm just a huge manitee.
A huge manitee.

And besides you're probably holding hands
With some skinny, pretty girl that likes to
Talk about bands and
All I wana do is ride bikes with you
And stay up late and watch cartoons."

"You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love until it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other until it makes you quiver but you'll never be friends.  Love isn't brains, children, it's blood - blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it."

... "hmm ... eye of rat."

I have been accused of not liking female actresses, so I decided to make a list of all the ones I like. I like alot, its just the few that annoy me really just annoy the shit out of me. mostly because they can't act. Or are supposed to be hot, but don't look very good. The worst is when it's both.  There's a few that are godawful in one movie, but cool in the next.

But anyway, the ones I don't particuarly like:

Keira Knightley
Kirsten Dunst
Claire Danes (looks like a dude, can't act. the end.)
Amanda Peet
Heather Graham (can't stand her, but she was great on Scrubs)
Mena Suvari
Mila Kunis (she'd be so pretty if she never opened her mouth)
Tara Reid
Katie Holmes
Milla Jovovich
Helena Bonham Carter (She creeps me out)
Kate Bosworth (could they have picked a worse lois lane?)
Jessica Alba (pretty but cant act. except she was awesome in good luck chuck because she was me)
Angelina Jolie (not convinced she can act, but she looks good sometimes)
Halle Berry (can't act)

The ones I do like:   ... of course most of them are fairly obscure.  but most of them can act, and yes, most of them are really pretty.

Zooey Deshanel
Mandy Moore
Katherine Heigl
Carla Gugino
Kadee Strickland
Kate Walsh
Bianca Kajlich
Piper Perabo
Rosario Dawson
Domonique Swain
Sarah Lancaster
Jusy Reyes
Natasha Henstridge
Amy Locane
Drew Barrymore
Alyson Hannigan
Joey Lauren Adams
Linda Cardellini
Leah Remini
Jacinda Barrett
Rachel Leigh Cook
Robin Tunney
Rhona Mitra
Lauren Ambrose
Melissa Sagemiller
Leslie Mann
Susan Sarandon
Diane Lane
DIane Keaton
Marla Sokoloff
Jena Malone
Eva Amurri
Amy Smart
Thora Birch
Clea Duvall
Jodi Lynn O'keefe
Mary Louise Parker
Julie Bowen
Rachel Miner
Melanie Lynskey
Candace Cameron
Kate Winslet (most of the time)
Jennifer Love Hewitt (couldn't stand her for a long time, but she's just so damn cool in interviews)
Sarah Michelle Geller (absolutely hated her thanks to Cruel Intentions, but she won me over as Buffy, surprisingly)
Queen Latifah
Jennifer Aniston
Selma Blair (one of the only good comic book girls ever)
Famke Janssen (one of the only other ones)
Rebecca Romijn (and again...)
Amanda Detmer
Rosanna Arquette (Hated her in whole 9 yards, loved her on what about brian)
Liv Tyler
Jennifer Garner
Jaime Pressley


My slightly odd list of dude actors that I like:

John Cusack
Gerard Butler
Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Topher Grace
Seth Green
Brad Renfro
Cillian Murphy
Ethan Embry
Ryan Reynolds
Robin Williams
Emile Hirsch
Nick Cage
Ed Norton
Matt Damon
Jason Lee
Tim Allen
Clive Owen
Shane West
Joaquin Pheonix
Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Neil Patrick Harris
Jason Segel
Devon Sawa
Seth Rogen
Matthew Lillard
Elden Henson
Steve Carell
Dane Cook
Brendan Frasier
Josh Hartnett
John C. McGinley
Mark-Paul Gosselaar
Tom Everett Scott
Jim Carrey
Joshua Jackson
Matthew Perry
Gabriel Macht
David Duchovny
David Boreanaz
Danny Masterson
Johnny Galecki
Mark Walberg
Michael J. Fox
Kirk Cameron
patton oswalt
Tyrese Gibson
Andre Benjamin
Garrett Hedlund